All you guys are just the same.

I really can't believe this.. How could you do this to me Muzzy? After all these wonderful years, I can't believe you left me for that Bitch!! if i ever see her around, i will seriously murder her! you have no idea how much this has hurt me! i will never ever forgive you! i cried the whole of last night and the tears are still flowing!! You of all people.. I never expected you to leave me like that! i should have never trusted you! I hate guys!! all are just the same!!



Seriously, don't tell me you fell for that! Of course that was fake! hahah.

Okie now let's come to the point. I typed out that whole paragraph not just for fun. That's the reaction you are likely to (not always though) get when a girl just had a bad break up. No brainer right.. This is what usually follows the break up.
1. they are all reduced to the same cliche ==> "All guys are just the same." (This is the same guy they said they would love forever and ever and ever till their last breath just some time ago).
2. suddenly, you'd see them saying stuff like "I have many other stuff to concentrate on anw, i shouldn't be wasting my time on relationships now." (why did u commit urself in a r/s in the first place? bad loser.)
3. They attack love. What u may see is "true love is for fools", "true love does not exist" and the funniest of the lot, "love is a word i will never learn to pronounce" (If i'm not wrong this is from some song, one of my facebook fren had this as her nick. funny i tell you. You must be the only person proud of having a speech problem. Go for speech theraphy i say!)

I decide to do some kinda analysis on the 'all guys are the same" statement. Let's define the key terms first.
all :Being or representing the entire or total number, amount, or quantity
guy : Informal a man or youth
same : identical in kind, quantity

So going by the definition i stated above, i interpret that those who say "all guys are the same", are trying to say that.. all men, including youths, are identical in all aspects.
Let's analyze this statement then.
First, yes u are right,but only if you were damn literal about it. This is gonna sound lame but yes, all guys are the same because... they are all guys! bingo. It's the most basic level. Like when you say all human beings are the same because they need air, water and food to survive.

But besides that, this statement = total bullshit + lack of any evidence of any further thought on this topic.

Don't ask me why it bothers me. I am not sure. Really. but it does. it's like.. I take it damn personally esp when i sense the negative overtones. Of course u don't mean it in this sense ==> "all guys are the same! they all rock!!!!=))))" u mean it in the "all guys are just the same. they all suck!" sense.
now did u just insult all the great men in my life? Do you have any idea how great my dad is? do u have a rough idea how much love my uncle is capable of? or do you know how protective my bro is? And how abt muzzy and the very few but fantastic guy friends that i have? They are out of the ordinary; they are amazing. Now what do you say to that? give me an answer!

Assuming in today's context, we have full autonomy to decide on who we want to be friends with, only you are to blame if you get to know all the black sheeps .How is it fair u tell me. you drag the whole of the guy population into your damn problem and say all guys are the same just because your black sheep sucks. Isn't it your fault that you get to know all the wrong guys whose personalities/lifestyle/character doesn't match yours?
And really.. if you have a problem with a guy, then you have a prob with him and him alone. personal and public, 2 different areas. don't blur the lines. just because you think one guys sucks, dun conclude that all guys suck. Extrapolating is not always a wise thing to do.

So it's simple. Don't generalize. Don't. Because it usually isn't true. Just because one guy cheated on you or just because you had a couple of bad relationships, you can't conclude that all guys suck. It doesn't work that way. Plus if u make such statements, people might end up thinking you aren't capable of much thinking. Cause the truth is, all guys are just different!

I din deal with the "all girls are the same!" part of the story, caz i haven't come across any guy fren who's said such stuff. Well, it could also be that girls just rock but come on, that cannot be the case. It just means that i've done such a good job with carefully picking out my guy friends that none of them say such ridiculous stuff! I cannot say the same for the girls tho. Sad but true!

So let me conclude with this. All guys are just NOT the same. definitely not!

faceboook.

I think it's facebook.
I used to have alot to say about alot of things happening around me.
But facebook has made me think of the shortest possible way to sum up what i'm feeling. If i've no inspiration to blog, all I wanna say is "Naseemah Yacob is slowly losing the inspiration to blog". Not go into the 5Ws and 1H of why i've lost the inspiration to blog.
BUT I still enjoy writing long long longg paragraphs so if i've a burning zeal to blog about certain stuf, i still will. I just need time to get over the facebook syndrome for now.

OkIe So PeOpLe WaNnA bE uNiQuE, pEoPlE wAnNa StAnD oUt. BuT iF u ThInK u StAnD oUt JuSt CaZ U tYpE lIkE tHiS, hOw CrAzY! iT's NoT uR fOrTe AnYmOrE, cAz EvEn I cAn TyPe LiKe ThIs! AnYoNe CaN wItH a BiT oF pRaCtiCe!!

What comes arnd must have gone arnd.

I dunno if my thoughts are ridiculous but i won't shy away from voicing them out.

I was watching globe trekker this morning and there was this woman talking about karma. and as usual it got me thinking. I'm not knowledgeable in this area and i haven thought in-depth abt the whole karma concept so pardon me if my thoughts seem rather childish/ill-developed or if they dun make any sense. lol.

let's come to the pt. many a times, when someone wrongs me or sth bad befalls me, i'm quick to say "why did it have to happen to me! what goes arnd comes arnd! whoever did this to me will surely suffer!' and with frens who have any probs, i'm quick to console them with the same dialogue. "dun worry, wat goes arnd comes arnd. he/she will surely pay the price."

but along the way, i started to realise that i'm not this perfect human being and i definitely have erred in many areas. tt's when i started to think more abt the whole  'what goes arnd comes arnd' thing. i mean if wad goes arnd comes arnd, wad comes arnd must have gone arnd, no? why do we act like we're truly 'victimised' when sth bad befalls us? shouldn't we be taking a step back to ponder if we have done sth wrong to some1, and if as a result we're paying the price? i'm not saying all of us are fundamentally evil or all of us are wrongdoers. maybe in some cases, god's jus testing us. but still.. given tt no one is perfect and everyone has probably erred in certain areas in life,(of caz some more than others), it doesn make sense to quickly qtn wad u've done to get such a treatment or for such a mishap to befall u whenever sth goes wrong.

as for me, i 'm not gonna ask myself "what did i do to deserve this??!!" caz i think i know the answer. also makes me feel less miserable when problems strike. well, better than wallowing in self-pity anyday.

trouble trouble

2 incidents i wanna blog about.

1st, last nite, i found myself lying in bed for a long longg time unable to get some shut eye despite me being rather tired. 

Not knowing wad to do, i decided to 'explore' my basic nokia phone which really doesn have any interesting features.

Click. Starhub->lifestye->horoscope->pisces. Message sent.

okie now u must be thinking i follow all those daily horoscope religiously. But i don't. i was expecting sth like "do not get angry today. it won't do u good" or "do not spend on impulse today. it mite not be sth u need" who doesn already know those stuff?  But yesterday i was freaked out caz the message read :

"You may spend much of this monday morning in the gathering or reviewing of unusual information for a teaching job."

I really was lor! And the thing is I dun usually prepare worksheets for my tuition lessons but yesterday I did spend a gud part of my morning doing up a worksheet and taking down phrases and all. Weirdd.

2nd, i was on my way home from tb with my sister when i spotted my sister's pri sch fren. This girl and my sis dun exactly get along. So i told my sister she should jus act normally and we started walking. The girl's sister must have seen us from a distance and she whispered sth to her sister and they both turned in our direction with a look in her face tt certainly annoyed me. WAHHH, DAMN DISCRETE LAH YOU GIRLS. I SWEAR I DIN KNOW U GUYS WERE TALKING ABT MY SISTER.

ANd so my sis was annoyed and she was telling me we should jus change direction so as to aviod them. but i insisted tt we walk pass them. And when we were close enuf to those girls, in a voice as loud as i could manage, i said "I mean if people wanna talk about you, they shouldn make it SOOOOOO obvious. tsk tsk."

Must have seen the look on tt girl's face. Priceless. Mr hamzah used to say, don't trouble trouble unless trouble troubles u!

Growing up

I was wondering today how it would feel to be a parent and as usual, my train of thoughts led me somewhere else. Not exactly linked but not totally unrelated either.

I'm not too sure about how it is with other siblings but as far as i'm concerned, this whole 'sister sister' thing did not come about very naturally for me and my younger sister.

For one, she was always this 'little girl' to me.

When i was about 5-6, i used to be busy preparing imaginary lessons and conducting imaginary classes for imaginary students,(ah yes, i loved to play teacher!). while she was this little toddler who was just learning how to take her first few steps. These were the earlier years where i very vaguely remember stuff. I dun know how i felt whe she was born. i don't know if i used to dote on her. I don't know when she took her first steps. I don't know if i was ever close to her. All i know now is that, she was this really little girl to me.

As i went on to upper pri and sec sch, jus as i was getting used to a few new 'rules' like "talk back to your parents whenever you can" and "hang out only with cool ppl" and "hang on the phone as much as you can" and "going home straight after school is totally uncool", she was this little girl again who had no choice but to succumb to every of my parents' demands and learn stuff i learnt eons ago like "matter is anything that has weight and occupies space."

Make a wild guess what happened after that? Well, when i was in Jc and herself in sec sch, it first hit me. "Oh my god.. we're both teenagers! she's no more the little girl she used to be!!" That realisation wasn't exactly positive. While i was coming out of those 'rules' i lived by for a few yrs, she's probably gonna start learning them. I cannot treat her like I used to say a yr or 2 ago, simply because she's no more a little girl!  i can't say stuff like "DO WHAT I SAY IF NOT THE BELT WILL GO FLYING AT YOUR FACE!" because I can't expect submission. i can only expect attitude! and that's really gonna suck.

I used to wonder back in jc how I should go about with my sister. I rmb feeling suddenly like i had to be a role-model(HAHAHAH.) and i used to be very cautious about what I tell her. I avoided the topic abt my relationship altogether. Don't even ask me why. Call me typical but i was afraid she was gonna learn from me and find herself a bf too!

That was me a few years ago. If you know me well enough, you would know that me and nazeera are indeed very close now. closer than I ever would have guessed. we do have our occasional tiffs but tt's jus sibling rivalry and wad's sisterhood abt if u cant even fight with ur sister?

I wouldn't say we're how we are today because a miracle happened and we just became close overnight. that's why i started off saying the whole process wasn't quite natural. It didn't just happen. I can say very surely that we've both put in quite a bit of time and effort to get here.  I rarely find a reason to keep anything away from my younger sis nowadays. (n of caz, she knows evrything about my relationship as well) we now have the give and take policy which goes sth like this: When i'm out with muzzy, u help me cover up. If u do anything silly, i'll help u cover up!

I've learnt quite a bit from this whole journey which is set to continue. 1, in any kind of relationship, you have really got to give and take. you can't just expect the other person to tell you about their experiences, you've got to share as well. 2, extremes do not work. you're doomed if you try to be overly authoritative with anybody. well it may work with some but as for me, i'm scared of the boomerang effect. 3, there needs to be trust. I don't belive in controlling every aspect of my sister's life. but i'm fine with her having her freedom(which my parents have problems trusting her with for reasons known only to them and god) on the accord that she doesn't break my trust. Simple.

Well yes, i think this is not totally unrelated to parenting.. with this, I hope i'll make a gud parent to my children in future.. All i can think of now is, "LUCKY KIDS!!" hahahaha. okie that's extremely thick-skinned and I shouldn't be thinking that far. till another time!

1+1=3

Do calculators ever go wrong?! jus wondering..

compatible

What's compatibility all about?

Everytime my mom returns from a wedding, she'd casually comment "the bride and bridegroom very compatible! they look soo nice together!" or "the couple so not compatible! the guy sooo big, the girl so small!" etc etc.

Not jus my mom, I feel many look at compatibily as just physical compatibily. the qtn is, 'do they look gud together when they're out?" But as far as i'm concerned, tt's wad compatibility in a relationship isn't about.

I know there are some who think Muzzy and I are not compatible. I absolutely disagree. But tell me u think we're physically no match and I will agree whole-heartedly. I mean come on. he's tall, i'm short. he's fair, i'm dark. he's smalll, i'm biggggggggg. we're jus soo opposite physically. (i dun intend to do anything abt my skin colour neither do i intend to take complan to become taller but one day, one fine day i shall bcum jus as sexy as muzzy! hehehehh)

As for me, i feel compatibility is beyond what's on the outside. I would believe a couple are compatible if they're able to exist in harmony together, if they have similar thoughts pertaining to important life issues and even if there are differences between, them they're able to complement one another. By this definition,I think we're compatible. U've no idea how it amuses me when muzzy finishes my sentences or has the same view/opinion/likes/dislikes as me. it can get so exciting to know there's a soul in the world who thinks just like you do. and when there's differences, I'm the least bothered caz i know those differences are respected. so now tell me, we're compatible aren't we?

But i admit it's nice to see couples who look gud together on top of being compatible! haha this is random but as i finished typing the last sentence, there were 3 couples on my mind! my bestest buddy Siti and her bf Ashraff, Yasmin and her hubby n Naf and Sham! I think they look so nicee together. it's like an added bonus! :)

ten

1) I need more discipline and control in my life.

2) I think acting dumb/blur is cool and has it's advantages.

3) Give me ur opinion only when i ask for it. in case u happen to have sth to say for anything and everything abt me, i go by the one-ear-in-one-ear-out rule.

4) I'm starting to dislike sms. it's either i forget to reply or i'm too lazy to. I'd rather settle stuff over the phone.

5) I think it's mean to put some1 down bacaz of the way they look,wad they wear,how they walk etc etc. i see it happening among girls esp n i get really annoyed.But of caz, me being me, i dun usually say anything. ( i mite hve done it in the past tho i resolve not to do tt anymore.)

6) I'm very big on respect but i dun believe in respecting some1 just because they're older than i am. i need better reasons to respect any1.

7) I miss jc life n vits and deeps and nivy and machan and 33/06!

8)  I wish for a certain family member of mine to be less of a tension party.

9) Any girl who has a bro who loves her, dotes on her and most importantly, shows her that he loves her, is an object of my hmmmmmmmmmm.. jealousy.

10) watching confessions of a shopaholic was like a wake up call. I seriously need to stop spending!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and my younger sis is the best financial consultant.

2

Happy 2 years to us.


I've got no long msgs,I dunno wad the future holds.

I'm just very thankful god put you in my life and me in yours for the past 2 yrs++

May this relationship that we both have given quite a bit to build stay strong. Ameen.

2oth

It's been twenty donkey years!

Happy Birthday Dearest Nafeesah Ka

and Happy Birthday to myself!

May this day turn out to be

as special as you are to me

and I am to you.

Muackss.

wishlist.

TGIT! yes i know it's supposed to be TGIF but hey rmb i've got a 3-day sch week tt ends on thurs? on a thurs nite, i'm as glad as u are on a friday night. hehe.

Today was.. kinda productive. I dunno whens the last time i managed to get so much done in a day.

SO in 2 weeks time, it's D DAY. yeap my bday. be careful if u're gonna ask me wad i want for formality's sake caz u're not gonna hear "eh no lah.. dun need to get me anything.. jus wish me will do!" who am i kidding. there are so many things tt i want! hehe. and since i'm quite nice and i dun wan u to be cracking ur head over wad to get me, i've come up with a bday wishlist! so here goess!

#10 : Garlock!!

Caz i love her so and i want her entire collection! i intend to open a mini Dorothy garlock library in my hse. Hehe.

#9:Treadmill!

Do i even need to explain? I badly need to lose weight. I love my morning workout sessions with sugan but wudn it just be cool to own a treadmill?

#8: London weight Management

Again i’m not gonna explain. This would be great. Oh and it has to be unlimited for a duration of 1 yr or sth.. HAHA.

#7: New York Skin Solution.

I want a clear face with no pimples. Grrr. So yes, it has to unlimited not for a yr only, until my face becomes clear again!

#6: A romantic weekend getaway for 2!

Lovely!!=)

#5: Sony Digi cam

OKie there's a digi cam at home but it's my dad's.. and it definitely wudn hurt if i had one to call my own! hehehe. After some experimenting i realise i like sony digi cam the most. their colours are so striking!

#4: Sony Viao P

I love my laptop but there’s one problem - the weight. It’s a torture to carry a 2.2kg laptop all arnd hilly nus i tell you. the best way to go : Sony Vaio P series =))

#3: Samsung Omnia

I’m so in love with this phone! My current obsession.

#2: CAR LICENSE

You know i’ve been wanting to get my car license since last yr.. Just get it for me, somehow. Haha

#1: PICANTO

What’s a license if i don't own a car to put my driving skills to use? Dun need to get me a SUV or a sports car.. jus a small one like picanto wud do.. I currently have my eye on this really cute green one! heheh.

There u have it, my wishlist for my 20th. so if u've already read it, dun pretend like u nvr visited my blog and u had better make sure u get me sth from here.!heheh.

Mummmyyy.

Wow, i've yet to do anything productive today.. wad a boring day it's been!


it's not that i've no work to do. there's LOTS to be done. i dunno wad i'm waiting for.. grrrr.

Anyway, i wanted to blog abt my mom. No i'm not gonna be complaining. haha. the day before muzzy's bday, i msged my mom. this is how our sms convo progressed..(oh yes, i needa add. my mom has no clue tt me and muzzy have been going out!)

Me: tmr muzzy's bday. I wanna go out with him.

Mom: So wad if it is his bday. Is it a must that u must go out with him.

Me: of caz it's a must!

Mom sorry i dun gif permission. Ask ur dad.

Me: No i will go! how come naf can go..

Mom: nowadays u talk alot. but sorry cannot go.

(i din bother replying and after a while she msged baq..)

Mom: Ok  joking. Go lah.But one condition. Make sure u dun hold hands ha ha ha . .

this really made me think that... my mom is soo innocent and okie i admit it, kinda cute. i mean i really feel so guilty tt she believes me and muzzy haf nvr met outside. she doesn't even suspect me a little! if only she gets to know abt our meetings and all.. i can jus imagine how disappointed she'd be!

But honestly, i dun understand her one rule : Can have bf but cannot go out. ???!!! wads the pt..

Oh and not only thatt. There's so many other things abt my mom that I dun understand. You see, the prob is, whenever she steps inside my room, the room's sumhow in a mess. Trust me, there are times when my room's as clean as a whistle. Just that when when my mom appears, it's not. And at moments like this, I know wad's awaiting me. An angry oration about how me and my siblings are the most messy kids in the whole wide world and how other kids keep their rooms sparkling clean. then she would go on and on abt how other kids are just better than us in all aspects. But of caz, it didn't have any effect on any of us. Especially caz we all knew very well that most kids were probably just like us and my mom's just building a mountain out of a molehill. Come on, everytime i go to a frens place randomly, i always hear this. "hey dun mind my room. it's not quite clean todae..."  i would readily add, "oh dun worry, mine's like tt most of the time ;)" haha. the pt is, my mom's not being realistic,again. most siblings probably dun't keep their rooms clean all the time, they probably fight like us, they're probably as lazy as us and probably dun help around at home all the time like us and the list goes on. hmmm..is it jus my mom or are all moms like tt?


ohh and my mom has a special skill. she can link everything up effortlessly. let's say she initially starts with scolding me abt my room being soo messy, it would end with "you're always going out! stop going out so much!" it's hard to sit down and talk things out this way caz i'm interested in talking out the issue at hand but my mom cannot help bringing in one prob after another. So like that how?

I'm not sure. Again,i'm not saying my mom's evil, mean etc etc. There's really no one who cares as much as she does. There's really no one who'd love me the way she does. But there's some stuff that's just hard to comprehend!


Just gotta live with it for now. I just hope I don't do this to my kids in future. Who knows, I just might.

.........

i dun mean to be harsh, but if u'd rather remain anonymous, i'd rather u dun comment on my blog. caz i like to keep it personal, i like it when i can relate to those who comment on my posts.thank god, i get to choose whose comments i wanna publish.heheh.

Blog etiquette.

Blogs have become very popular, haven't they? Every other person I know already has a blog or is wondering if he/she should start blogging.

Whatever reasons you choose to have a blog for, I firmly believe there are some etiquettes to follow. I know generally the perception with many people is "It's my blog, I write whatever I want, you're no one to question me." I am no exception. I have felt a couple of times myself that I should be allowed to express my views freely. And I still believe so. I haven't had any problems with that thus far and I hope to maintain it that way.

I was blog-hopping the other day and I realised there are only a handful who blog about issues they're probably passionate about. from politics to education to fashion. many others keep it at the personal level- like mine. I find some kind of happiness in penning down what happened yesterday or the day before and how i felt at that time etc etc. and i suppose that's fine. Plus it's easier for friends to keep in touch and find out about what's happening in each other's lifes. But there's alot of other things about many personal blogs that's really not fine.Of caz, these don't apply to protected blogs.


First, I don't think it's really nice to use your blog to lauch personal attacks on someone. Many do this for instant gratification. some take down the posts a while after publishing it, when they realise they've been too harsh. But you never know who has visited your blog already and truth is wad has been read, cannot be un-read. Whatever you put on your blog, it becomes public knowledge straightaway. That's why i feel you've to give enough thought to what you're publishing before you actually publish it. Because like it or not, whoever reads your blog is gonna judge you through whatever you're saying on your blog.

Second, I definitely will say quoting what someone else said on their blog and then insulting them is really not fine. I think it's basic courtesy that you ask for permission from the owner of the blog before quoting their views. because unless you've been granted permission, you should never quote what someone else says on their blog. And remember, when u disagree with someone's views, you're disagreeing with the post, not the person who posted it. That brings me to my third point.

If u disagree with someone's views and feel the need to comment, you're welcome to do so. But no name calling or insulting please. It reflects badly on you. If you're up for some healthy debate, that would be great. If you can't offer that, then don't bother wasting your time.

Fourth, for those who are on the receiving end of insults and arguments and comments that really don't seem to make much sense, just ignore them. Ignorance is sometimes the best defence against sarcasm and such insults.

Fifth, just because someone said something bad about you on their blog, it doesn't mean you have to think up a hundred bad things to say about them on your blog. Like i said, it's best to ignore.Unless of course you're competing  for the "who can get bi*ch-ier* title. Caz by getting back at the person, you're not gonna accomplish anything. Just wasting time. Like what suganya once said, "what people say about you is their business, not yours." how true.

These are some etiquettes I believe should be followed. You might not agree with all but well it's just my opinions. Have fun blogging fellow bloggersss.

don't/can't/have never/will never

i don't/can't/have never/will never and shud nvr ever attempt to understand 2 pple in this world - my mom and my uncle.

I had a bit of a misunderstanding with my mom last nite and i was realli upset abt it. nth annoys me more than being misunderstood. and when it comes to me, my mom tends to assume alot of things. and i'm nvr given a chance to explain. i think asking me wad i feel sometimes wud solve alot of problems. but i'm rarely asked wad i feel/think. caz the assumption my mom has is.. her assumptions abt me are always right. grrr.

and so i decided not to bottle up my feelings and i told muzzy evrything tt had happened, like i usually do. he has this way of putting things into perspective for me and his brain works at like gear 5 even at 1.am in the morning. he said i shud jus realli talk it out with her the next day. i know this confronting thing wudn work, not with me and my mom. and then i decided to send my mom this long long long long long msg explaining things out to her.this was at 7 in the morning. i waited and i waited and i waited but i nvr got any reply from her. n we were'nt even talking to each other at home. and at 9 at nite, she suddenly came inside my room, laughed as if she jus heard sth realli funny and said.. "thanks for the msg!"

i dunno how to react, mummy. and then i just replied saying "u can fwd the msg i send u to nafeesah but u dunno hoe to reply to my sms ah? " and she was still wearing a smile on her lips when she said "oh, fwd easy to do wad. reply must think alot' or sth like tt.

weird. like i said, i dun understand why she reacted the way she did. i was expecting some kind of silent treatment from her. n i was actually bracing myself for the cold shoulder. so unpredictable.

but wadever it is mummy, pls take tt serious msg seriously.pls!

like she's gonna read this, haha.

Twinss

Twins. Wad does tt word bring to mind? as for me, i picture 2 very very cute and adorable kids looking identical from top to toe. like this :

awww vv cute rite.. well being a twin myself, i had some of this very twin moments too..

Then..

& Now..

but of caz, me and my twin dun at all look alike. tt's caz we're fraternal twins. meaning we come from 2 seperate eggs. not like identical twins where the egg splits into 2. haha. even then, being twins, we're always asked a few standard qtns like..

-are u guys identical?

?????!!!!!?????!!!duhhhhhhhhhhhh nooooooooooooo. do we look identical????!!!!  but evrytime we're asked this qtn, we smile politely and say "oh no, we're not identical. we're fraternal twins. =))))" n the reply we get is ==> "no wonder u guys dun look identical!" LOL. yes correct,we dun look alike.

and then some other qtns like "are u guys alike?", "do u guys feel happy and sad at the same time?" and "do u guys share the same interests?"

and our standard answer usually is "hmmm yeah certain stuff we're alike.. yeah sumtimes.. and no.. we dun realli share the same interests.." it became quite a routine and at times even a little annoying to be asked these qtns and to answer them! haha.

So i guess the perception is, as long as u're twins, u guys are probably very alike and haf the same interests and abilities.But twins, especially fraternal twins, are really jus unique individuals like everyone else. they dun share much similarities.

For example, naf can do beautiful henna art. like this:

If u asked me to do henna art on ur hand, it wud spell disaster.haha!

i haf felt at many pts tt there realli isn't anyone hu understands the real me as much as my twin nafeesah. i also haf felt at many instances that there's this special bond i share with her. but i've nvr once felt i was jus like my sister. nor haf i felt she was jus like me. when we younger, my mom used to dress us up alike, from our clothes, our shoes to the accessories.(i am 99% sure that up to at least 10 yrs old, our wardrobe looked identical) we carried the same bag. we went to same sch. we studied in the same class. we had the same pencil case.we had the same frens.we were in the same cca. and yes u get the drift. but things started changing after we went to different sec schs. tt's where evrything from the uniform changed. we had different taste in clothes. we had different interest. we joined different ccas. and we had different grp of frens. we no longer wore the same stuff when we were out. pple wud easily say we were sisters but no one even had a clue we were twins!

and now evrytime we're out at a relatives place for a gathering we get asked a different set of qtns like:

"why aren't u guys wearing the same thing?"

"why din u guys go to the same sec sch?"

"why din both of u go jc?" or "why din both of u go poly?"

no doubt we're twins but we are 2 individuals who haf totally different interests and abilities. as simple as tt.

and most recently, i get asked this qtn so much tt it is extremely annoying.

"ur sister wears the tudong rite? how come u dun wear ah? and summore u're the one who has gome umrah twice. how come she wears the tudong and u dun?u shud start wearing.!"

and my answer usually is "insha allah i'll wear it one day." i keep it at tt caz they're relatives and if u talk back against them, u're in trouble. But deep down i'm thinking..

1) what makes u think  i shud wear the tudong jus caz my sister does? and who are u to compare me and my sis? don't u know we're grown up now and tt we're 2 different pple?

2)who are u to come hint tt i'm not as religious as my sis jus caz i dun wear the tudong? religion is btwn me and god. u are no judge. and whethere i adorn the hijab - is my personal choice. do i become more pious jus caz i cover my head? from wad i noe, hijab is not jus abt covering the head. there's actually alot more to it. of caz, in a secular nation like singapore, hijab in it's purest form would be hard to follow. but still wud it be okie if i wore extremely tight fitting clothes with the headscarf? will u then stop telling me stuff like "u've done ur umrah twice and u still haven wear tudong.. but ur sister already started"?

i really dun understand. maybe u're meaning me well but comparing me and my sis is a totally wrong thing to do. i dun understand ur basis of comparison. and i'm almost 20, i like to believe that i have the maturity to deal with my issues myself. i like to believe that there will be a day when within me, there'll be this thing tt says "u shud start adorning the hijab." and tt's wen i really will.

so when pple compare us, it gets really annoying. from academics, to what we wear, to what we are.  just stop comparing us. In the past, my mom used to compare us too. "how come she get 90/100 n u nvr? how come she this and u that? thank god she stopped sumwhr along the way. comparing siblings, especially twins, in my view, isnt sumthing v healthy to do. i feel it's just totally insensitive.

I started out wanting to blog abt wadever tt came to my mind. i'm not sure how to end this entry but all i can say is, when u see us in the streets, dun ask us why we're not wearing the same thing or why we're not in the same sch or why we're not marrying the same man!